"My Major Setback."

I have a major setback. I'm sure most of my friends/family already know whats my inability but as everyone knows, i have alot of inabilities and i'm specifically talking about only one of them here.

Guessed it?



It's sad. I'm a chinese. And i can't speak chinese. I can't speak Cantonese. I can't speak Hokkien. I can't speak Mandarin. etc etc.


It's not funny. I don't know. Blame me for not continuing my mandarin classes - yes, i used to go for mandarin classes back at standard 1 till standard 3 and then somehow i discontinued learning mandarin. Now i can't remember a thing what i learn back then. Doesn't make much difference though.

Dated back to 1994. his is my end results during my year at standard 1.

So since then, i haven't made an effort to learn mandarin/cantonese. You can blame me for that too. So..now here i am, a 19 year old chinese who can't even speak a proper cantonese sentence (lets use cantonese because most of us speaks canto). However i do understand certain terms and words which are those simple basic ones.

I know this is one heck of a major setback for me, but that doesn't mean its a reason to make fun out of me.

I hate it when people talk about me, right in my face in cantonese. I don't understand a single shit and it makes me look damn stupid. Its even worse when its done within a group, thus my stupidity is multiplied. Good job.

I hate it when people talk to me in cantonese, asking me question/stupid questions that makes me look even more stupid. Its even worse when its done within a group, thus my stupidity is multiplied. Good job again.

It IS fun to make fun out of people. Everyone enjoys taking a little bit out of someone. But sometimes i just can't take it especially on this language barrier i have. This is making fun out of inability which is just about the same as making fun out of someone who is disabled, and that is not funny.

I feel so stupid now.

- take care, and God bless everyone.

- tsencai.