"Morons"

"Morons"


What's with ppl on the road? Especially motorcyclists? The way the ride around their little two-wheeler mobile; they think they're invincible.

Really.


Today i nearly hit one - and a possible of sending him flying to his demise. and i really meant literally flying.

Somewhere at my neighbourhood area-

I made a u-turn. As any sensible drive, i'd look left and right..and again..just to make sure. After that i proceeded turning the wheel.

Out of no where: this guy..just zoomed pass by at sick speed. It was so fast all i heard was the screeching sound of tyres as he hit the brakes trying to avoid my car.

what the heck? MoroN - do you want to die so badly? He definitely must've skipped the traffic light before the u-turn. There wasn't suppose to be any traffic heading my way.

And so..this fella..he stopped.

I stopped.

He began to stare at me.

Stare nuts ah - so i stare back la.

Then i drove pass him - he chased as i predicted. He picked up speed - driving side by side w/ me.

then he began throwing vulgarity at me which i cannot comprehend very well coz i dun think this guy's very educated - he's malay.

Sorry - but he is.

All in all he had to show me the finger - WHAT?

I continued to stare at him wondering what was this fella thinking? This guy's even a "P" driver! Well he doesn't look 17-19 that's for sure. He must've somehow got penalized for his license and he got it back. He looked 20+. I kept my cool, and refrained myself from winding down the window and retaliate.

I jz looked at him as he drove pass. What kind of ppl are these?


But anyawy, with that driving of his especially in that motorcycle - he ain't going to live long. Somehow or someday he'll just going to meet up w/ an accident. He's asking for it. Moron.

Anyway i forgive him. I don't have time to deal w/ morons like these. I pity these people. I wonder what's wt their state of mentality like?


Pls don't be like this fella. I could've taken note of his license plate but somehow that idea jz slipped off my mind. If i ever encounter the same fella again - this time he won't be so lucky :)



"Oh my God. It happened so fast he just zipped pass and ended up right underneath my CRV"

gg :)



- take care and God bless.

- tsencai.

"Memoirs of a Gaysha"

"Memoirs of a Gaysha"







Rather crappy video in my opinion nevertheless still entertaining.

Enjoy :)

"Deep Inside"

"Deep Inside"

Few years back he thought he met the most decent one. Nice, warm-hearted - something could've started. Time passes by. In the end things just didn't worked out. Interception happened.

He took a heavy fall. Right into the exam season it was. Grades didn't turn out well. Pills and sharp objects seemed attractive. However, he got back on his feet soon after. He knew moving on is a must.

Life goes on.

He met a decent one. Having a fresh new start, something could be done. Happy times passed. It was time to take it at eased. Guess again. Interception happened.

It hurt so badly he thought it was time to take the train (just for rhymig sake). He felt so hopeless and useless. He just sucked. Depression was all over.





Time goes by. Still hut and down, he still can't get over it. Things were thought to be going great but however things just really sucked for him. I think he sucks. One day, opportunity came - at least he thought it did. Back on his feet he was. Hope still shined. Guess again.

Interception occured. It was striker number three.


There wasn't any hope. Hopeless. Useless. I think he's really a bum. A loser.




He gave up. Really down, and depressed, he only could turn to his coffee cups. It was a way of feeling better over screw-ups.


Even more time has passed. He wants to move on. And he did. About time he had a time out. Studies were his main focus now. Though his academic capabilities are quite low. I, however, have faith in him :)



01:02:03am - 4th May 2006. What did you do? Made a wish? Well i made one. I wish life would be better and fairer. I prayed that Father woul bestow me with wisdom and knowledge to put up with all these nonsense and also to pull me through them. I ever so need His help.






Response is at floor level. I'm withdrawing.







- I still have faith, but this time - enough is enough. No more nonsense.


- take care and God bless, everyone.


- tsencai.

"Enjoy"

"Enjoy"

Something to laugh about. Enjoy :)

I've been slacking alot lately. My sleeping times are all upside down - i take naps in the night and sleep in the mornings. Sigh.



- take care & God bless.

- tsencai.

"Once in a Life Time"

"Once in a Life Time"


The time is 12:53:35 on the 04/05/06. Hmm...


8 minutes and 28 seconds to 01:02:03 - 04/05/06.



- make a wish :)


- take care and God bless, everyone.


- tsencai.

"Why"

"Why"

Why is life so confusing? I'm lost.

Why can't anything work out? Nothing ever does.

Why am I here? Among the few billion cells in a mother's stomach, why me.

Why am I alive? It's not time.

Why is everything I do a failure? I don't know.

Why is everything a disappointment? I don't know.

Why will I always be alone? I don't know.

Why can't I do anything right? I really don't know.

Why not give up on dreams? They never do come true.

Why are the only dreams that come true nightmares? So true.

Why do dreams make you feel good and have hope? That's what dreams are - at least to me.

Why, in reality, is there no hope? At least for me.

Why is there no love? Same as above.

Why is there no dream come true? They never do - at least for me.

Why is there only pain? I don't know.

Why is there only failure? I don't know.

Why is life pure sadness? I don't know.

WHY?

Why is this?

Why does Life Suck?

Why is there: Heartache? Depression? Feelings of Regret? Sorrow?

Why is life unfair?

Why does life stink?

Is there really a better life out there?

Is there hope?

I really feel that i've had enough of all these. No more nonsense.

- y'all take care. God bless.

- tsencai.

"Skills that Kills"

"Skills that Kills"


These vids speak for themselves; Enjoy :)










The last video is the same person who played "Canon Rock" in the last video of one of my previous posts. Click HERE to see what i mean.



Kinda amazing who these people acquire such skill eh? It's amazing what people are capable of especially when they put their heart into it.




This' a photo taken back in 2003, at Korea. Was browsing through photos, and i found this. Beautiful right?


Aye, don't really have anything up interesting lately to post and i think posting poser pics of myself is very wrong....



- take care and God bless.


-tsencai.

"2005"

"2005"


Click for a larger size.


Ahh..memories :)




- take care and God bless, everyone.


- tsencai.

"Collosal Stupidity is Me"

"Collosal Stupidity is Me"


Today, i is can congratulate me self for making most stupid flaw. Something to do with my management assignment.

Alright, this is how it is; at the end of the assignment, i have to have an appendix section - this is where i photostat all pages of the journals that i have referred to for my assignment topic. This is to be shown as proof that i have referred from these journals.

For the first each page of the photostated journal, i have to print out the word "Appendix I/II/III.. etc" on the top right hand corner over it. This means i have to slot the paper into my printer, and print the word over it.


And so..it was time to do those tasks. My printer was capable of printing and photostating :) ahah.. Canon products.

This is what was done in order-

1. Slotted in the first page of journal article into the photostating cache.
2. Didn't photostat yet, wanted to print out word "Appendix" on another photostated journal page.
3. So, slotted in first page of other journal article into printing cache.
4. I forgot about Step 1, so i pressed the green button to begin photostating.
5. GG.

This is what happens if i tend to be so absent minded -

In case you still don't know whats that, i photostated a journal over another photostated journal!


Damn.


Collosal stupidity is me.







- take care everyone, and God bless.


- tsencai.

"Reach"

"Reach"


Finally. The burden of bus. law assignment is finally gone. That leaves management that's due at the end of the week. Assignments doesn't stop there though...

I haven't been getting enough sleep nowadays. My eyelids seem to be heavier at the last few periods of lecture. Don't really know why. If only lectures would be more interesting..hmm..


Speaking of lectures ..





That would be rather interesting..hehe. The only ppl i can expect doing that might be Joe or Kwee. HAHA! eh..new ideas for ur lectures man. That'd really take guts to do that. haha..and also a sporting lecturer or else = gg.


Anyway update on Monday;

Freaking sui day. Monday was the due date for my business law assignment. All work must be handed up before 2.00pm or else gg. But since i completed my work (that is at least what i thought), i had nothing to worry about. I was totally stress-free. As i was going to class, i saw a coursemate of mine; he was holding a diskette.

"Eh, whats the diskette for?"

"Oh..Mr.Zain (our BL lecturer) says you need a softcopy of your work and hand it in together".

So i thought, nvm-lar. I got my thumbdrive with me, and i can buy a diskette from the college's bookstore. Then i can just make the copy in the com. lab.




I didn't bring my thumbdrive. GG.


Shit man - i gg liaw if i don't do something. I had to go all the way back home to fetch a softcopy of my work, and get the diskette. It was naer 11am that time - my next class starts at 11.30am. Excellent. Perfect timing.

So i went home...came back... I was forced to park at the parking lot that is usually reserved for the Sunway Medical Centre - you see it when u drive along the main road to Sunway College.


The ticket-vending machine as you enter the parking lot wasn't working. There was this guy fixing it, and the barrier was open. Since the machine wasn't working, and can't issue tickets, the fella just ask me to go in - without the ticket.

"Eh, then bagaimana keluar nanti?"

"Lu tengok pondok kecil tu?" - points at the small pondok in the lot.

"lu datang cari saya.saya ada ke situ"

"but..kelas saya end evening saja...lama"

"tak apa..saya masih di sini"

Ok-lorr.. so i just went in w/o the ticket and made the long walk back to college.

I made it into lecture 10minutes late - lucky lecturer was in a good mood, i think.. hmm..

Anyhow, all went well. I manage hand up my law assignment, and it was time to choww..


I got back to the parking lot i mentioned just now. Went there..see the pondok..go there...and ...


nobody.


ARGH! now how am i suppose to get out? I even tried walking back to the entry point of the parking lot just to get the ticket (it needs a car to be present in front of the machine then only it will issue a ticket). NOothing. Didn't work. Damn..i'm gona be stuck here...so sui.

But anyhow, i made it out - only at 7pm - class ended at 5.30pm. Don't think i'll need to elaborate there. hehs...


Overall - not a good day for me.




- what's up with plans - His plans?

Everything, seems to be going wrong..for me. Things, just don't seem to be working out as i hope it would be. Depression really sucks. People tell me that i'm sad cause i choose to be sad. I choose to be happy - but what's there to be happy about? i can't.



- take care everyone.

- God bless.

"Starbucks less Bucks?"

"Starbucks less Bucks?"


Greetings,


Saturday night - finally. I attended this Nite Gig thing at Starbucks @ Taipan. SubangJaya.



It's a charity performance organized by the ICPU people from Taylor's. Several bands came to perform in this charity thing including local band Altered Frequency - click HERE to go to their site.

Anyway, my friend Joe was suppose to perform as well. So, i came with -

Kwee..

Eh..look there la.

Take proper pic mah. Kirsty on the left..and as usual, Kirsty comes in a one-for-the-price-of-two package.

Ini dia Aaron..

This' taken by Kirsty, trying to be vulgar..

- and also many more that i haven't their photos.

Anyhow, we waited for Joe and his band to complete their performance so that we can have dinner at Pizza Uno.

This charity performance by several bands were actually really..just for fun. As quoted Joe, these bands just come up here and play just to 'syok sendiri'. Hehe..and i thought at first it was some competition or something.

The band above played a variation of Creed's "With Arms Wide Open". They're not bad.

There were good ones...and really really noisy ones. I duno la - i can't believe they even called those stuff music. Your typical "rock" band.

Joe's band - lead and accoustics by Joe's coursemantes and Marc on bass.

Overall they were one of the better performers. Instead of the usual loud noisy so-called "rock" music, they played something different. They started off with The Calling's "Wherever You Will Go". After listening to so much loud music, listening to that piece by The Calling was so much soothing to the ears. Finally some actual real music.

After the performance we headed to Pizza Uno for dinner. I even met my aunt and uncle there man -__-". They were having supper while we were having our dinner. Haha..go figure :)

At Pizza Uno - Taipan.

Dinner's over - it's only 10.30pm. Hehs..all agreed to proceed to Asia Kafe.

Remember the performance at Starbucks? Apparently the management there didn't have a proper permit to host a live performance. Somehow, MPSJ got hold of news that a live performance was held there and maybe it made too much noise or something - so..they got there, and sapu-ed everything. GG.

Lucky Joe's band left the scene much earlier. I don't know but the othjer bands, but the rented equipments were all confiscated by the MPSJ. Everybody was kinda sesat - it was quite unexpected. The management sure kena man. GG.

Well, not really any of my business actually. Hehs..maybe a competitor of Starbucks got envious of the crowd its attracting and therefore notified the MPSJ. Then ngam-ngam they didn't have a permit to host live performances in the place. So GG lor.

Anyway..i'm home, tired, and it's time for some shut eye.

Oh btw..

Happy Birthday, Joe Hock - Yes, he is special.

- Joe Hock turns 19 on Sunday, 23rd April 2006. Many wishes and blessings for the special guy who just turned 19.

- take care and God bless, everyone,

- tsencai.

"Collateral Damage"

"Collateral Damage"


Ahh..at long last, my law assignment is finally over. Now for management assignment -__-" walaoo...hahz

Anyway its been long since a post. If you're wondering what i've been up to lately, don't worry..i've just been busy with assignments. Just trying to cope up with uni. work thats all. Hehz..and i think i'm doing quite an ok job lar..at least i think i do.

Well, at least thats over, and now i'm left for this weekend for a short relax. Oh wait..i can't.

Tmr is my Microeconomics block teaching session. I have to go to college on a Saturday...argh..

Well i can't complain, at least it wasn't on Saturday AND Sunday like my Management block teaching. Bah..what a weekend..

The block teaching starts from 10am and ends at 3pm (??!!!) Yeah, there is break in between; 12pm-1pm. Each session = 2 hours. Waliao..i think i confirm sleep on the 2nd session of. zZzZz...

Anyhow, Monash students are back to classes on this coming Monday (yahooo?? ahah :] ). Hehs..at least my Monash buddies are back with me again ahaha...


That's all for now. Gonna get some shuteye - this early? yeah..this early...





- take care and God bless, everyone,


-tsencai.

"More Fun than Two"

"More Fun than Two"

Argh! Go to www.youtube.com and search for 'canon rock'. Everybody seems to be doing it!







Business Law assignment due this Friday. Argh..getting back to work.




- God bless and take care, everyone.

- tsencai.

"FunTwo"

"FunTwo"


Check this out;









This guy is just amazing. A mind-blowing performance that each time i watch it will continue to inspire me to pick up my axe and practice more and more. Good job.


Just so you know,
Funtwo is a 17-year old Korean guy.



- take care and God bless, everyone.


- tsencai.

"Good Friday"

"Good Friday"


Have a Good Friday everyone.


-take care and God bless, everyone.

-tsencai.

"I Say"

"When I Say"


When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean living"
I'm whispering "I was lost",
Now I'm found and forgiven.


When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say... 'I am Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm am weak
And need his strength to carry on.

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success
I'm admitting I have failed
and need God to clean my mess.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God still believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner Who received God’s good grace, somehow.



Thank you, my friends :)


- God bless you all.

- tsencai.






Anyway..i manage to dug up more K3 memories. Enjoy :)

I just realize i have tons of photos that i've never seen before. Hehz..

For now take care and God bless everyone.

-tsencai.

"Help Me"

"Help Me"


God help me. I'm feeling so down i could kiss the floor - lame phrase. As quoted by some of my friends - He has no doubt have plans for me. No doubt? I really wish. I'm now wishing so badly He really has a plan for me.

The fact that i've been torned, and devastated so badly and so many times till once i was at the verge and very edge of suicide thoughts before this makes me question -

What is He trying to show me?
What needs to be proven?
Does He want me to see something?
What is it?
When will i see it?


I need a prayer.


- take care and God bless everyone.

- tsencai.

"Doing Devotions"

"Doing Devotions"

Having mixing w/ a lot of strong christian friends got me thinking..i'm beginning to question my faith in christianity. Am i really a Christian? I mean..honestly.. now come to think of it - am I able to call myself even one?

As i mentioned before - i accepted Christ last year at a church of a friend of mine. I went there with 2 of my close college buddies. Both are Christians - strong ones. Accepting is one thing - but going to church?

Yea - i hardly go to church. No, make that rarely. Oh wait, VERY rarely. Even so i don't really go to church, i do my set of tasks everday that maybe could just - bring me closer to Him. I normally spend some time doing devotions - devoting some time to God.

I didn't realize i was actually doing devotions all these time..until a long conversation w/ a close buddy of mine. We were talking about his problems over the phone - some he had to deal w/ in such a short period of time. I pity the little guy.

Admist talking about his problems, we ended up talking about my own set of problems. He told me to get this book (or read it..i forgot liaw..kinda long time ago) - The Purpose Driven Life.

So i told him i've been reading it since last year..during the mid year. It was gift from a college buddy. No - it wasn't a birthday gift. He was being helpful...I had a lot problems i had to cope up with. All stupid problems...social and parental issues.

It was given to me during college hours. I was instructed to read a chapter a day - which the book consisted of 40 chapters that will enlighten your life..really. It works. This book is dedicated to everybody. You should read it.

So roughly in about a month or so, the book should've been completed. But i'm not done yet! I'm still reading it! I'm reading it for the second time now ..yay yay..gives self a pat on the back...ok that was ....gay.



Anyhow..my spiritual walk doesn't end here. Last year, the same college buddy gave me a Christmas gift.

Haha! A bible. I was totally expecting it from him. It was a gift from him and his girlfriend. I guess there are really people who care for you...awwww ...ehehe ..ok.. that was....gay..HAHA.. anyway..move on.

I do abit of bible reading on my free time. I'm serious. I'm not joking. I read quite little la...cause another rather interesting book caught my attention;

I'm so thankful i ever got this book. Remember the friend i mentioned that brought me to my realisation that i've been doing devotions all this while? Yea, same little fella. It's his book - he had the heart to lend it to me.

By the way i looked at the book, it's aimed rather at youngsters. The book talks about honest, romantic, and a refreshing biblical look at relationships. It inteprets courtships with wisdom. It's all about dating with a purpose (Harris. J 2000, Boy Meets Girl, Multnomah Publishers).

Well, i'm still haven't completed reading this book - only halfway through. Even so, i've already learnt alot from it. It made me taught me how to be patient and understand courtships (kao lui ah) better.

I'd really wish i've gotten this book at a much earlier time of my life. It would save me a lot of heart aches.

To the little friend of mine - Thank you :)

As for going to church - long story....i think i';ve said it before. My mum blasted at me wheni told her i wanna go to my friend's church.

Why? Cause she says why not go to my cousin's church instead of theirs. Alright..at that time i didn't know what to say - because telling her that the company didn't really suit me won't be a very good answer.

I feel more comfortable around my friends - is that a problem?

I'm gonna be more frank in the future.

Take care and God bless, everyone :)

-tsencai.

"Semester Break!"

"Semester Break!"

Woopeedoo..semester break! more time to do assignments...gg.

Having a headache now after 2 straight games of DotA w/ the MG in BS3.

Arghh...gonna take a nap now..zZzZ

Longer post at night. hehe..


For now, take care and God bless everyone =)

"Kay Tea Edge Are Ee Ee"

"Kay Tea Edge Are Ee Ee"


Greetings everyone.

My semester break is soon to come. Only one more class left. Yup. One more. I just have to attend an hour more of tutorial class and my break begins. It's only a week though.

And believe me, i won't be enjoying much during these holidays.

Anyway, i read Joe's blog lately. It felt so refreshing to see such a post reminding me the time we had last year.

Taylors.

It's only been a year. But it felt as if i've been there for nearly a lifetime. (ok-lah..maybe not a lifetime. Jz felt as if it was a very, very long time.)

The way Joe described me when he first saw me was rather...frank.

ei? was i rather that unfriendly looking? -.-;

Anyhow, that was my first impression in college. Believe me, i'm a changed person at the end of the year. And i'm glad.

I remember the days that we gathered in the library to study before the exams. That didn't work. We all ended up in SilverSurf. Hehs.

I still remember the days during the exam season when i head to the library to study, where John would hitch a ride from me to college, since he lives nearby and he's just too lazy to take the long walk to Taylor's. haha..

I remember the classes at the IT lab. Everybody will be at everywhere (teagames.com, fantasy football...etc) else except what Ms.Sue is wants us to do. hehe..

I remember our AsiaKafe/Silversurf/Warnet/Inferno/pork mee (Joe reminded me)/french toast/$3 shop/Darusallam sessions.

Especially our outings and gatherings. I'd wish for the barbeque party gathering at ChorYeow's place again.

I would like to take this time to thank God for all the many blessings he has bestowed on me, every moment of those days. I'm ever so grateful to have ever made friends with the group of people that we were once strangers, now walked out as friends; as Joe said.


Everyone in K3 has blessed my heart. I'll always remember K3 in my prayers. God bless you all :)

Joe..

Patrick, Kok Pin...

Kwee..

John...

Aaron, Kirsty - the unofficial K3-ian. ahah..*quoted by Joe.

and many more to be included... Ah Fai, and Ying ZHen...

A bond of friendship that will be etched for life. Take care and God bless, everyone.

SmilE!! Gotta smile mORE!